Remembering My Grandmother Olga

Grandma, I never lacked words to show you and tell you when you want. I remember many times when I always said (you're my only granddaughter and my favorite and I love you) and laughed when we said, well actually I'm the only grandmother granddaughter. I close my eyes and it's like passing the time by my mind, remembering that moment there when I hugged her tightly, and although his vocabulary was not the same, could not find the perfect words to talk, you will understand everything perfect and could speak quite well and walking with help from his Walker.Recuerdo moments of joy, Christmas, Thanksgiving, Birthdays, and spent every Saturday afternoon until 8:00 pm here at home, in company of my dear grandmother of 94 years Anne, better friends. Their farewells were admirable and give us a lesson, not everyone can appreciate a friendship and my grandmother said goodbye and kissed as if they never met again but, laughing, and sorrows, we stayed watching them, I was always a thoughtful smile on my lips and admire the time that rarely give a true friendship.

My grandmother never complained, I was like her, no matter if he was wrong, for whatever reason always said that was fine, and always admire and why I admire because despite being in the hospital in serious condition, always told us it was fine. I will never forget his smile, that I can not ever see, and my grandmother is not the same, after 2 Strock, and other diseases alzeimers no longer walk again, and know from time to time. When I go to the hospital to see her, I wonder where my grandmother? That's not my grandmother, and the look is not the same, no smiles, no longer speaks, but deep down remains the same, has always been feisty, independent, cheerful and positive and although you can no longer prove it by inside will remain the same. And my grandmother did not look at me like before, it keeps staring, does not have the appetite as before, always ate well, never let an empty food bowl now hardly eats, is very weak and it is natural after all which in the past. Often, months ago I asked him about my doubts about whether she was scared to death, I was scared to death, the unknown, but exceeds this stage of my life, and my grandmother gave me confidence and I said never be afraid, that's natural, I I have no fear.

Since these walks in the park, laughter contagion, when it became wild because I wanted to do what she wanted and especially not walk with his walker and those times will not return, I can only remembrance. She enjoyed life to the fullest, traveled to Disney World, went to the fair, ride on the boat to my cousin and I handle it even went to Jacksonville, St. Augustine, so many memories that I have to think very clearly , so many memories I have of her. He always told me, my dear granddaughter. Nevertheless, my grandmother always had an open mind and would have liked not being in bed with devices placed on it to artificially breathe, I'm sure of it. Do not want her to suffer and that would be very sad for everyone, I do not think so, but be realistic, and my grandmother never be the same as before and slowly with great effort I have accepted. Grandma, I love you both and I have always admired. See you in the hospital bed, with your little face makes me sick and so much pain, frustration and sadness, I'm trying to be strong for you, for me and all, but it is not easy.

Tonight I'll stay with you to take care, and a lifetime I would if I could, God knows what he does, and if you have to accept it from, but I thank God that you still I have in my life, but if you could just give me a small smile as the first day, I exchange all my life .. Grandma I love you forever now and my grandmother Anna siempre.Tu and are very important to me. You want your only granddaughter and preferred. Ivette.